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[Jul. 31st, 2006|10:31 am] |
People come in your life for a reason
People come into your life for a reason, a season, or a life time. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person. When someone is in your life a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are. they are there for the reason you need them to be. Then without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relasonship to an end.
Some times they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.
Some people some into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. Then bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They usually give you a unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it; it is real, but only for a short season. Seasonal breakups are intense like a severe thunderstorm, but the pain passes quickly.
LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person, and put what you have learned to use into that relationship. If by some small chance you are blessed to have a few people who love you throughout your lifetime: cherish them share your love openly with them and be understanding of their humanly traits as you would want them to be understanding of your stengths and weaknesses. Quickly resolve conflicts and be forgiving to keep the foundation of you relationship strong.
However if your lifetime relationship fails, put what you learned form it into all other relationships and areas of your life. Always treat people as if they were the new lifetime relationship, quickly get out of seasonal relationships, and reflect on those who come into your life for a reason. |
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[Aug. 8th, 2005|04:39 pm] |
so Warped Tour was yesterday and I actually had a lot of fun.
Bands that I saw:
The Transplants *
The Briefs *
Offspring *
Dropkick Murphys *
Thrice *
Motion City Soundtrack
Saosin *
Academy is
Scary Kids Scaring Kids
The A.K.A.'s *
Split Fifty *
Yeah so pretty much there was only a couple of bands that I could have done without seeing. I mainly just went to see The transplants, The Briefts, Offspring, Thrice, and Saosin. Saosin was good but I like the old singer better but he is in Circa Survive now.. well has been for a while.
Why I am pissed off about Warped Tour:
so.. Warped tour gets worse every year. Fuck paying $10 to park on a patch of grass. Not to mention how its $3 for a water and they get mad at me when I steal their freakin ice. I'm not going to spend $54351 on water all fuckin day. Also it seems to me that the prices for merch has went up a lot just from lastyear.. I know thats not really "warped tour" making them charge that much. But it used to be where you could buy a t-shirt for about $8 now its about $15-$20. I bought a shirt from The Briefs originally it should have been $15 instead I told him that was a little high for my price range and he said well what can I do for you and I said $10? and he said I dont know if I can do that but how about $12 and I add some stickers in with it. and it was a deal. Another reason why I don't like warped tour is that there are too many lame ass girls there wearing way too much make-up and slutty clothes. They are so "hardcore" yet I'm still only moshing w/ guys and maybe one other girl.
okay so I'm going to stop bitchin' about the tour now because it's not like I had to go. All in all I really did have fun. The music was great, and seeing the Briefs made my day. They were amazing.. and its nice to see that there are still good Punk Rock bands around and not all that whiney shit. And I'm not saying that I don't listen to some "Emo" music or what not I do.. I listen to Underoath, The Used, Thursday.. but some of these bands Ie: fall out boy, senses fail, they all sound the fuckin same. ask any of those cool emo chicks if they like one of those bands then they like all the same 65435132 bands.. because they all sound the same.
The funnest part of concerts is beating up the "hardcore emo girls" too bad they don't try to mosh than I could really beat the shit out of them. I have realized in the past several months that I have developed a strong hatred for girls. I don't know how I even play softball.. not that I am really friends with maybe but a few of them. but I just can't stand most girls they are so immature and care too much of what people think of them.
Wow.. if you read this far.. your either pissed about what I said.. or interested.. not really sure. |
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[Jul. 4th, 2005|09:18 pm] |
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okay so lastnight was fun. Kim and I decided to get Zack to go with us to see fireworks at this park in Deltona. I was having so much fun they played the macarana... (sp?) anyways. We met Kim's friend Kim up there, she is soooo coool!! Also Paco, Jeff, and The Check were there.. hotties I must say..haha. But yeah they were playing soccer the whole time and after the fireworks they played some more soccer. the fireworks were pretty sweet.. but the ashes from them were falling all over me.. at first i didnt know what was hitting me. So then.. when we were leaving.. Paco.. Jeff.. and The Check they decided to give me really sweaty hugs.. Paco gave me 3 cause he is super cool.. and he kept rubbing his head sweat on me.. so I probably smelled. Then I saw motha effin JIMMY.. which totally made my night because he is the coolest fuckin KID EVER.. and I hadn't seen him since school ended. I gave him like the giantest hug EVER. haha. Then we left and went to Taco Bell because I was STARVING! Then we went to wal-mart and zack took pictures of kim and I hula hooping.. it was pretty sweet. then we fought with giant Noodles.. the kind that you can swim w/ in your pool.. not food. yeah then i was getting pretty sleepy.. and zack was making fun of me.. but thats cool. haha then finally we left wal-mart.. so yeah I came home at around 12:40 ish. |
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[Jul. 1st, 2005|06:44 pm] |
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sooo lets just say I haven't had the best day today.. and to top it off some fat gangster kid that thought he was black was hitting on me in the gas station. |
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[Jul. 1st, 2005|03:25 pm] |
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the truth is I'm really fuckin lame and I wish I had friends so I wasn't sitting in my house all day in my fuckin pajamas. |
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[Jun. 12th, 2005|08:55 am] |
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[Jun. 11th, 2005|11:08 pm] |
The Survey Where You Say The First Word That Comes To Mind. Yay. | Created by -ambiguous and taken 54985 times on bzoink! | | What comes to mind when you hear.. | | ..snow? | snowman | | ..rain? | lightning | | ..tornado? | flying cows | | ..summer love? | the notebook | | ..Jon? | my sisters best friend | | ..Mike? | this cool kid in my 1st blk last year | | ..Shea? | this chick i used to play softball with | | ..banana? | HUGE | | ..dizzy? | falling | | ..Laura? | nothing | | ..Juan? | tai juan | | ..car? | my 89' toyota tercel | | ..white? | chocolate...lmao have no idea | | ..peppermint? | do I have bad breath? | | ..New Found Glory? | hahahahaha | | ..placebo? | is that a band? | | ..orange juice? | yummy | | ..candid camera? | dude I forgot about that show | | ..sister? | I love her | | ..brother? | got 2 amazing ones.. they are badass | | ..hate? | no on | | ..school? | I'm sooo glad its summer | | ..President? | fuck bush | | ..football? | I just watched "Friday Night Lights" | | ..rap? | SUCK | | ..pop? | .... | | ..rock? | Sublime | | ..punk? | NOFX | | ..sex? | I'm a virgin | | ..death? | not yet | | ..baby? | I can wait..but want one, one day | | ..duuude? | fuck | | ..the end? | finally | Create a Survey | Search Surveys | Go to bzoink! |
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[Jun. 11th, 2005|08:47 pm] |
so I pretty much don't use this thing anymore. I should but I don't really have many friends on here that would read so it seems pointless...hahaha. I'm such a fuckin loser. so yeah today softball games got cancelled.. Pissed I was! for real. tomorrow we play at 11 so thats cooool. I *hate* rain!
updates: Well pretty much so far this summer I've just been doing softball. I love it I'll never get sick of it, yes I know I'm a nerd. this past week I went to the brevard community college softball camp it was really badass and it was cool since I have been talking to the coach there. So I got to stay after and do some extra stuff so he could take a look at me. I think I did good and he had some good things to say about me, and he asked for me to send him my schedule again so hopefully he will be able to see me play sometime soon. I've been mailing letters to lots of different college coaches so who knows where I'll end up.
pretty much I don't like anyone. I'm pretty used to be single and fuckin lonely all the time.
Oh yeah I got my report card and did better than I thought on it, I was scared though cause I thought I was gonna do bad and make my gpa drop.. but it didn't. wow I really am a nerd. damnit. |
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[Apr. 7th, 2005|03:34 pm] |
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yeah so I definitely got home today about 3.. you have no idea how awesome it is to be home this early! Amazing I tell you. Although I am still pretty much pissed that they cancelled our game against Lake Howell, It's not even raining, it doesn't even look like it's going to rain. |
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[Apr. 6th, 2005|10:48 pm] |
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So why do I have to be in this situation. I hate is so much. I can't stand it. I never thought I'd have to be in this situation. Why does there have to be this distance between me and the person that I really care about. Just move on.. yeah I wish it was that simple, but it's not. Who knows, he may not even care about me at all that way.. I mean I know that we can always be good friends and of course that would be better than nothing at all, because I love talking to him. He always makes me laugh, and he is wonderful. I just can't stand this anymore. Why does he mean so much to me? this is killing me, and I can't just get over all of this. </3 |
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[Apr. 3rd, 2005|06:08 pm] |
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I like someone that I can't be with this is driving me insane. The distance between us sucks. Why does it have to be this way? |
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[Apr. 2nd, 2005|11:09 pm] |
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I don't even know how to describe my weekend. I had the most amazing time and I wouldn't trade the time that I spent with him for anything. We hung out in Daytona like the whole day friday until about midnight and then some today until he had to go back home. Lastnight was one of the best nights I've had in a very looooong time. Him and I walked on the beach just holding hands and having a wonderful time, and just being cute. Then we went back to my sisters apartment but instead of going inside we just stayed in his truck for about 2 hrs. It was the best time ever. It was a lot of fun trying to figure out how to lay down in his truck. We were being such dorks and just having a good time. I haven't been that happy in a long time. The worst part about this whole situation is that I know that him and I could have the most wonderful relationship if only we didnt live about 3 and 1/2 hrs away from each other. I just can't make any since of all this. I know that were young and I know that anything is possible in the future, I just wish that I knew what the future holds. Will him and I ever be able to be together? I wish we didn't live so far away from each other, it would be so much simpler if we lived closer together. In all honesty I wasn't really expecting us to hold hands and kiss and stuff it just happened, what we did just felt so right. I don't regret any of it at all. I'm glad we did what we did. I just wish it wasn't so painful to know that we can't be together. I'm so attracted to him in so many ways but we can't be together. And the question remains... why? Why is all of this happening? Why did we meet in the first place? Why is he becoming a big part of my life? I hope sooner or later some of these questions may be answered even though they may never be answered. What if they remain unanswered and I never know why. I won't forget this weekend because It was wonderful.
Tonight I cried. It was a good cry. I needed to get it out. I hate crying, but I do it anyways, it helps. |
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[Feb. 12th, 2005|05:42 pm] |
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Today. I haven't really done anything. But I've been really happy.
Thursday in our game we beat Mt. Dora 7-3, and last night we lost to Umatilla 3-2.. but it was still a good game. I hit a double :) yipee! lol. I can't wait till the Taste Of Chaos Friday, I am going straight there from my softball game. I'm really excited to see The Used, since I haven't seen them for two years. I'm so tired. I woke up today at about 8:30 and I Don't know why, it made me mad though. I need to clean the bathroom, I need to do homework, I need to work out, and I need to clean my room, but I just don't feel like doing any of those things. Blah. Oh well. The Notebook came out on dvd the other day, I put it on my netflix list so I will probably get it in 3 or 4 days.. since its the weekend right now. That movie is so sad, but I love it anyways.
Games this week:
Tuesday @ 7:00 against Bishop Moore (away)
Wednesday @ 7:00 against Lake Brantley (away)
Friday @ 4:00 against Atlantic (home) |
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[Feb. 9th, 2005|10:01 pm] |
Sometimes I feel like I get so wrapped up in things I don't actually look at the reality of it.
It's like, I might start to like a guy, and I don't think about it, it just sort of happens. Then reality check turns on and I think how unlucky I am, and how nothing ever goes my way, so why would this time be different, it won't be different.
Sometimes I think I'll just be alone forever, maybe it would be easier that way. just maybe. I want to be with someone, someone I can be happy with, but I just think that, that would just be impossible. </3
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[Feb. 9th, 2005|09:20 pm] |
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Last night, I went to the Social with my sister and we saw Anberlin, it was a really cool, fun show. I was a little disappointed because I really wanted to hear Autobahn, but then they played Naive Orleans and totally made up for it. Anyways, it was an awesome show. I had never been to the Social before, I really like it there, and it only took about 40 minutes.
so Today. I had a test in Math Analysis. I think I did well on it.. hopefully, *crosses fingers* Anyways, today was another boring day. Nothing exciting ever happens to me. PLEASE.. somebody come and Brighten up my day, It'll be worth it..haha..jk. Tomorrow is the pre season classic for Highschool softball.. I'm excited we play in Umitilla or something like that, I think its about an hour or hour and a half drive. Blah! Today when I got home from softball practice I studied for 2 Whole hours for Health Science.. I hope I do good on the test Friday *crosses fingers again* Alright, Well Im OUt. XOXOXOXO
9 days.....Taste of Chaos, Orlando
11 days....Taste of Chaos, Jacksonville.
THE USED WILL ROCK MY WORLD. |
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[Feb. 6th, 2005|10:12 pm] |
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lately I've been thinking. and sometimes I feel like I've been lying to my friends and lying to myself about how I feel. I've been single for six months now. and I used to not want a relationship. and I used to think they were pointless, but what happens now. Now, when I'm feeling lonely. What happens if I start to like someone? Am I supposed to just forget about the way that I feel and not even try and get into a relationship, or should I sort to speak take action. and do something about those feelings. Am I supposed to hang out with that person, or just forget that I started to like him? I dunno. It's just that lately, I want to be happy, I want to be in a relationship with someone, and I want someone to care about me, and I want someone that I can just hang out with, someone who wants to be lying next to me. Someone I can cuddle with, someone who I can trust with my feelings. I don't know what I am talking about. |
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[Feb. 6th, 2005|04:52 pm] |
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Yesterday was realllly coool. I went to the Altamonte Mall to hang out with Brendan, from myspace. I had so much fun with him, it was a good day. We went in the bookstore and he read me childrens books, and It was so awesome...hehe. My favorite book he read me was, hippos go berserk.. it was magnificent. Hopefully were gonna hang out again next weekend, yipee! alright. well I'm out. |
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[Feb. 4th, 2005|10:13 pm] |
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well. This week was a pretty good week I guess. Wednesday was the coolest, my teacher for 3rd block, astronomy class, wasn't there, and neither was the sub. So we were all just chillen in the classroom wondering if anyone was ever going to come, it was awesome. we just put on some space movie so that it looked like we were doing something productive. Then someone came in for the last 10 minutes of class, wich was very pointless. oh well! I had softball all week except today she cancelled but I dont know why.. but it was freezing so I guess it was ok. I love this cold weather even though im sitting here being cold. I need someone to warm me up :( Tomorrow I have to go to the school and have a field workday.. but I don't know exactly what we'll be doing. Then I think I'm goin to the mall even though I don't really have any money. I want a cookie. |
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[Feb. 2nd, 2005|09:43 pm] |
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Come and go now as you please
Your actions write the melodies
To the songs that we sing
And you just sing
And I finally found that life goes on without you
And my world still turns when you're not around
Is this the way you want it?
Is this the way it has to be?
Sitting here beside you
But my heart's lost in New Orleans
Dreams come clever
Hearts now severed
Difference of forever
And I am lost there
Come and go now as you please
Your actions write the melodies
To the songs that we sing
And you just sing along out loud |
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